Other, than how fast time flies, I am starting to get a real sense of reality. I am gaining a new outlook on life. Before I got to medical school, I was busy trying to make everything your supposed to do in one life time happen all before I turned thirty years old. And then what? I realized I had only planned my life until 30-something and realized I was missing it. I was missing life. I never fully enjoyed anything because I wanted to hurry onto the next. I never lived in the moment I created for myself. I had seriously felt like I had missed the boat on what I should be doing and who I should be doing it with. After two stints of failed love, I still wound up in medical school trying to make something of myself. I'm 24 years old and I have lived in 3 different cities (hopefully 4 in August- God willing). Now, I found myself blogging about what I plan to do next.
Today was the first day I was truly annoyed by Facebook. I know. It sounds stupid but I am truly over it. I realized I was getting on for the wrong reasons. I got on it for the same reason most people get on it for- too see what's going on with people who may or may not have any marked value in my life. I decided I wanted to live a life not about what's going on with others, but one that was going for me. I want to make a promise to make myself try to live some life everyday, whether it be biking, talking to a complete stranger, or reevaluating my entire thought of thinking and treating people. I aways wanted to be a doctor and in my heart a doctor is always changing, like a flower- which I chose the name the Gardenia Doctor. Gardenia only because they are one of flowers that will bloom the most, much as I hope to bloom as a physician. So I pray that this blog can be an inspiration to anyone in need of strength, encouragement and wisdom, but more honestly a hopeful reminder that we are flowers in bloom for only a short time.
Inspiration: As for man, his days are as grass: as a flower of the field, so he flourisheth. -Psalms 103:15
